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How many people can still have their parents and siblings in the same house everyday?……..and be happy to be living together?……..

How many people can be in a food heaven with no worry of no food to eat?

How many people can maintain friendship for such a long long time? 10 years? 20 years?

How many people can have the peace and happiness within him/herself?

If you are the one, be thankful, be grateful……..

thanks to God who let you enjoy this luxury….

thanks to your parents and sibling who are so forgiving and tolerant……..

thanks to your friends who are so kind and patient……..

thanks to the country,although not perfect but providing you more than just basic……..

life is so good………i treasure this moment………..thank you………

i can’t remember where i heard this from……i vaguely remember it sounds like this…….A thought can become an action, an action can become a habit……emm, it still doesn’t sound right….there are much more in the phrase……..but my point today is……..we all develop lots and lots of habit without us knowing……

you might have heard people said: I must have …….if not i can’t……..

you might have heard people said: i don’t know lah…….. the moment another person asked a question………

you might have heard people said: no, it should be…………the moment another people make a statement……….

you might have heard people said bad words all the time……..

i once heard this old lady scold her children with bad words (your mother F***)……..question is who is she scolding leh???……..it’s her habit…..i don’t think she knew what she was doing………

i am not sure because i am sensitive or it’s really happening…i saw more old folks home since i came back compared to a few years ago…..

it’s quite worrying……does it mean that the youngsters nowaday are giving up on their elderly??…if so, is our culture fading away slowly with our highly westernised education??……

or are those old folks homes there for good??…….i saw a slogan outside an old folks home saying ‘let our senior citizen spend the last stage of their life with dignity’….that’s the current thinking of most elderly in europe but is that the thinking of our elderly here…….i thought it’s our culture to have our children to take care of us when we get older……..as a child, we are expected to take care of our parents when they get older…….

but honestly, if i have a child……i would wan to go to old folks home if my partner pass away earlier than me or if my child is too busy to take care of me…..i will be happy with some friends in a home………

but honestly, my parent will kill me if i use this as a reason to send them to old folks home……;P…….but i will not send them to old folks home as much as i can……hehe….already discuss with my bro…parents is a share care between us…..6 months ur place, 6 months my place……if they are strong and healthy, they can spend a month or two in china with my relatives…….

if you have lots of sibling…….u r a lucky one provided ur other siblings are capable to take care of ur parents……i pity those who need to take care of their parents just because he/she is the most well-to-do of all while he/she has 10-15 siblings…….our parents don’t need us to be millionaire………what our parents want are pretty basic….if u know them well………

we spend lots of time to get to know a stranger but sad enough we might not spend enough time to get to know out parents better……..wait till a day when u become somebody parent……..hehehehe……..lucky u (this words got double meaning ok, i’m not being sarcastic)…….

Today is another monday……another day of life……but the only 17 of August 2009……which will never come back again………..i had kong fu chao mien for breakfast….reading news paper for a while…and then sleep again from 11 to half 1……have lunch then….a small bowl of ching tong mien…….full and contented……..drinking a can of  7up revive………and sat in the living room watching tv for another few hours……took a bath and tidy my hair before i went to took photo……..4 passport size photo for RM12…..in Segar……..Connaught cost me RM15……emm…i thought the price should be standard……..the girl look at me like an alien when i asked if i need to pay there and then after taking the photo……and i realised what’s wrong………after my mum told me that it’s understood to pay full before you take the photo……:P……….this remind me of another stupid moment i faced last sat………i asked the guy who served me in starbuck to toast the ciabiatta for me and he gave me a cunning smile……then he said ‘only ???? ca be served chill’…….i was thinking to myself….well ,true…..i forgot the ciabiatta was kept in the fridge…….

i think i still need sometime to get use to the so called ‘ understood’ stuff here……emm……..give me sometime………i still don’t un oh….

i was writing something about quarrel and when i was about to post it……i realised that the wifi is off………thanks to my brother and the whole page is gone……..

to write it again…….no……..i’m lazy and sleepy and it would never be the same……

i guess a friend of mine is right……..i write as if i am typing out my thoughts at the moment……no sequence….no plots…no clear point…….

true…….this is like my diary……where i can just voice out what i like, what my thoughts are without thinking…….haha…….u can think about your thoughts, u can have thoughts without thinking…….haha…….the thought about ‘quarrel’ is gone………let it be……..

i don’t really know her until i read a blog of my friend………..and then i watch a few of her commercial ads on youtube……..and they were so touching…….she gives me an impression that she is a woman who can bring out the most touching part in life and remind us that life is meaningful…….is hopeful…….is worth iving………may God bless her……rest in peace………..

people always asked this question…why r u going home?

because i miss my family…….

because i miss home………..

because i have no body in a foreign country…….don’t you have friends?……..i do but what i mean by nobody is my family or a boyfriend…somebody very close…closer than friends…….in a way some people will think i’m going home to find boyfriend or a husband……….although i don’t denied having no boyfriend in a foreign place is a factor that cause me not to hesitate to come home but this doesn’t mean i ‘m actively coming home just to find a boyfriend……though i don’t deny the fact i have higher chance of having a boyfriend at home than in a foreign country…….

back to the topic…why r u home?

because i don’t like the placement i had got……..although i got the speacialty i like…..

because i don’t have a visa which i never regret not getting it before getting a job……..

because i can see i will become more and more materialistic and maybe lost myself with too much luxury and not as much friends…and not even my family to share………

because…i feel it is very hard to tell all the reasons that i have……is not solely because of one reason……..

because i just feel like coming home…….and i love my home…..

where is your home?………home is where your loves one is/are…….whether ur loves on is you family etc…..

because……why because?

I won’t know when will the transition period end……a minute i am happy…a minute i m worry……a minute i am sad……a minute i take it easy…..i think the most important things is how to make sure this period will end nicely….how to make full use of this period……how to learn to take a step at a time…treasure now and not think too much about the future and the past……..time to grow up, girl…

today is such a tiring day…when you r contantly reminded how stupid you are…constantly told you have not done the most obvious things that need to be done…constantly slow and blurr……feeling rubbish is rubbish…but the world won’t stop for you…..kambadeh!!!

There is something that you have to keep within urself and never tell people……not even people to trust…….because of pride?……who knows…….you just don’t want to say anything……not to anyone……..

You will suffer the whole life……. the memories will haunt you…….you might try to forget……..you might find excuse to cheat urself…….but you will remember it forever……..

but there is little can be said………let it be a lesson…….a big lesson……people around you might change their attitude to you………might look at you differently……..might gossip about you……..but as long as you are brave to accept you fault…….you brave to say sorry to the world……you are brave to continue life……you are still the winner………

you might be sad……….you might want to end your life……..but what will happen then……….people who love you will be sad for you…….people who don’t like you will think you r a looser……people who don’t know you won’t care……..

The active phase is the hardest hit…….the most difficult to face………..but today will become history…….soon you will find your stand somewhere…….you will learn who is your true friend…….who really care about you and not your status……..who will be there for you no matter what you have done wrong……..

stay strong…….don’t get defeated by yourself……..don’t let yourself let you down……..don’t be afraid to face you mistake……don’t be shy to say sorry from your heart……..don’t let your sorrow slow you down……move on…….rather than sitting still and cry at your mistake…….sad at your downs in life……why not stand up and cheer up……….this is life………